Chihiro Tanaka (Porcelina Takahashi/Iscariot)

NAME: Chihiro Tanaka (Porcelina Takahashi/Iscariot)

AGE: 14 -15

CLASS: Freshman

APPEARANCE: Chihiro has a pale, sickly complexion with long black hair, with fringed bangs, and "distant" icy blue eyes. She is rather shapely underneath her conservative form of dress which consists of long sundresses that go down below the knees or in cold weather bundled up in sweaters or coats. In her leisure time, she wears a navy blue cotton Jinbei.

Chihiro:



Chihiro (as Porcelina):



BACKSTORY: Chihiro was born prematurely on December 25th, 2005 via C-section in a Tokyo hospital. She was small enough to fit in her mother's hand through she grown substantially since. Her mother, dour and severe, controlling woman with bipolar disorder, taught art to private high school students to pay off debts. She secretly despised them and her job, making well under what she believed she was worth, berating them under her breath, and took out her frustrations by drinking and abusing her anxiety medication, venting harshly on her husband and daughter, believing they were the fault of her dashed artistic career. Chihiro's father, a struggling playwright and actor, had a sunny yet distant disposition to his daughter and often stayed shut in his bedroom, letting the responsibility fall on his wife's shoulders. Chihiro generally had a disaffected, depersonalized personality, which allowed her to cope with her turbulent family life. She was withdrawn, uncommunicative and sullen but very observant with a detached curiosity.

During primary school, Chihiro was a very asocial child who often spent time watching the children in their frolicking with an intensity or creating a whole cast of imaginary playmates in her room, creating them for various scenarios in the form of plays, dressing up in various outfits to play certain parts (she had been taken to a few of her father's rehearsals and local performances). She made very few friends if any at all due to her lack of communication and connection skills.

It was during this time that Chihiro had her first grand mal seizure, a complex partial that came upon her like a sudden swelling wave before locking her movement. She was caught in the middle of a one-sided argument between her parents about Chihiro's coming birthday and as Chihiro tried to get her mother's attention to pose a suggestion, she was smacked with prime force sending her to the ground in shock. Fear of her mother's look of smoldering batlike fury sent her into a defensive curl in the corner, beginning to cry. Her mother, hating the sound of Chihiro's sobbing, attempted to drag her by the hair to the bedroom after hitting her to make her stop while her father attempted to pry her off, as she calling her daughter a burden and a mistake, an utter waste of space. As she said these words and repeatedly reached down to grab her, Chihiro began to seize, stopping automatically, her hics caught in her throat. She had begun to blackout. The lights seemed to dim and her perception began to warp; the surroundings began to look like low-fi film, grainy yet with a surrealistic clarity like a dream. A tall girl in a school uniform crawled out of her mother's mouth, unzipping her like a costume and shedding her off like a heavy shell.



She who looked just like an older version of Chihiro with an aura of enigma, sinister workings and strangely enough, maternal warmth and protection that never had been administered by either of her parents. Cast in contrast to the blurry background like an stark apparition. Familiar was she like she knew exactly who the person was but at the same time couldn't fathom it. She reached out to her and awoke to a hospital room ceiling. A doctor diagnosed her with temporal lobe epilepsy and wrote off her vision as a mere hallucinogenic side effect of the seizure. Other than that, she had no recollection of the seizure itself and what had caused it exactly. Eventually, the vision faded from memory after she left the hospital and continued into junior high, still traumatized by the ever-looming wrath of her mother.

Junior high was a even more so turbulent time for Chihiro as legal processions raged on to take her from her mother's custody and to her father's whilst their divorce was being finalized. Already alienated from her classmates due to her reluctance to participate socially with them, Chihiro's epileptic episodes with visions and all, polarized her peers even further to shun and avoid her. Bullying became the norm and picking up with it, her seizures increasing in frequency and potency, provoked by the heavy load of stress coming from all directions and often rendering her incapacitated. The woman appeared in times of extreme distress, consoling her as she became her for those few minutes to which the seizures occurred as she was rendered unconscious if it was a grand mal. Porcelina, she called herself. Chihiro began to latch on to the seemingly hallucinatory yet tangible Porcelina but she remained her silence so as not to be targeted for that too.

During her second year, Chihiro was hospitalized due to a bullying attack by a group of fellow juniors and seniors. She was longing to get into the theater club since the beginning of the year and had finally mustered up the courage to attempt it. Most of the school knew of Chihiro's condition and her main tormentor was the chairman of the club, restricted to performing classics. Chihiro showed them her typed up play script that she had been working on for the past two years with some assistance from her father. They tore the script in front of her face with a mocking laugh while degrading the work as sophomoric and mediocre. Chihiro had written it a series of heartfelt monologues describing what she had felt all these silent years. Chihiro stared at the torn pages on the floor and a wave of hard anger washed over her, causing her to lunge at the chairman and repeatedly hit her until she was pried off and ganged-up on by all the members, beaten until a grand mal shook her from the fear of seeing those surrounding her as her mother, snarling and screaming those hurtful words at her. Due to the impact of the seizure and the severity of the beating, Chihiro was in the hospital with broken ribs, a broken nose, black eye, a missing tooth or two, and paralyzed from the waist down from sheer shock of it as well as getting kicked extremely hard in the tailbone, sustaining damage there. Her seizures were nocturnal mostly now and we triggered on remembrance of the event. She regained the ability to walk again after a month or two of counseling and physical therapy. However, her epileptic attacks were still in heavy recurrence and still incapacitated her greatly, parts of her memory would fail at times due to the amnesiac mini-blackouts from the seizures, furthermore she would collapse on the street shaking as she seized. After completing junior high, Chihiro was referred to Yamaku Academy for Disabled Students. Underneath her shell of depersonalization, something ominous was beginning to crack through.


PERSONALITY: Chihiro is quiet, meek, asocial and distanced from people due her inability to communicate regularly. When she does speak, it is in childish, short, straightforward sentences . She tends to cling on to other people such as her father and "delusions" such as her imaginary friends or anything that gives her affection and makes her feel safe. She often tends to detach herself emotionally and mentally from verbal, emotional and mental abuse or any other cruelties the world throws at her but only so much she can take. There's a limit. Chihiro has uncanny observation skills and can read and learn at an fast rate of progress. She has an obsessive curiosity about human emotions, interaction and can often be found in the background of crowded places, observing instead of actively participating.

Porcelina is, essentially, Chihiro's Jungian shadow, or in simpler terms, the unconscious, repressed side of her personality.

Shadow:

Manipulative, promiscuous, sharp-tongued, witty and sinister, Porcelina lacks empathy and can be utterly cruel and sadistic. She also lacks modesty and is not afraid to flaunt, or to boast her voluptuous (often hidden. by Chihiro) figure to get what she wants or to simply indulge in her hedonistic nature. She was extremely frank to the point of rudeness and speaks with arcane charisma. Darkly witty and highly cunning. Porcelina's grandiosity and tendency for the dramatic border on megalomania, believing herself to be divine and having the ability to "pass judgement" on those who fit her category of scum. She often approaches people when in control of Chihiro's body while she's unconscious and creeping into the light of day to find company.

I have 3 problems with this:

1) First and foremost, Yamaku does NOT accept students with mental conditions! That has been repeated in the game, by developers and stated very clearly in the rules right here, so I don't know how you could've missed this information. The only way this character could ever be approved is if she also has some kind of physical disability in addition to that.
2) To be honest, I've never heard of the word "altercation" before, but according to my dictionary it means "heated argument". I doubt this would get someone into a hospital, so I suggest you rephrase the whole sentence and give more information about the event (make it at least a para), seeing as it's probably one of the most important ones in her life.
3) You can't describe the personalities of what are essentially 2 completely different characters with only 2 sentences in total. I'll need at least 2 paragraphs dedicated solely to explaining their personalities with as much detail as possible before I even think about approving this.

Bah. I need much more time. I wasn't satisfied myself with it. Get it together, Harrison! Wait. Chika had no disability yet she was still accepted... Eh. I'll work on it until it's perfect by at least my standards.

Students with no disabilities at all are accepted (ex. Misha from KS and Wade Jr. from the forum). But students with only mental disabilities are not.

Shit. And I thought I could get away with adding a mental health division to the place. Oh well.

make it the NorXTNP way, give her "minor" physical disabilitys but alot of them that usually works if it alters her life negatively.

We wouldn't have a mental wing, since our former Psychotherapist, which by the way is the only semblance of a mental wing we had if you will, hasn't logged on in ages and it's unlikely that he will return.

This aside, there will need to be more elaboration and you'll have to give her an honest reason for being here. Don't worry however, there are physical impediments that exist that don't make life impossibly hard, just hard enough to facilitate needing to come here. I'm sure you can find something, even if it's just a form of anemia etc that would allow her to be here.


Also, I'd like it if we had a better understanding of the inner workings of both sides of her, we seem to understand who "Porcelina" is quite well, however maybe we should know more about Chihiro and how she gradually became more divided in her personalities. We'll probably also need the true catalyst of what brings her to Yamaku, as Raiden had aforementioned, I don't think a simple altercation will do this. I am sure you can think of something.


A bit of fleshing out is in order. I know personally what your personal standards are so I know, I very well know you can do this. We'll be awaiting your edits.

Three admins. All three. Damn. Got it. I'll fix it soon. Hmmm...

Done with edits.

As for approval you have mine after edits, I shall await the others to see what they think.

I'll be perfectly honest with you - I don't think I'm very comfortable with her having Asperger's. First of all, this is a VERY complex condition that's nearly impossible to get right in fiction, let alone in roleplay. In order to even begin to represent it properly, you need to do many hours of research... and since practically none of Chihiro's personality traits are typical for someone with Asperher's (except her distancing herself from people), I can tell this is not the case. In any case, even if you represented her flawlessly, there's an even bigger problem - Yamaku's simply not equipped in order to deal with students suffering from that condition. Children and teenagers with Asperger's require very special education, and a very particular way of being taught things. This isn't something our current teachers can provide, as none of them are qualified to do so.

I have other problems with this profile, but I'm willing to overlook them as long as you remove the Asperger's.

Removed it.

Approved.

Also, if you don't mind, please do tell me what else is at issue with the program. If I am to grow, I need all the criticism I can get so I can get better at this.

Okay, let's start from the beginning, just because you asked.

1) Babies born THAT early almost never survive. If she fits into the palm of her mother's hand, that means she was only four months old (that's when the fetus is about 5 inches long), and I don't think I need to tell you that a baby born before even the halfway point of the pregnancy can't possibly survive. Generally, babies born before the 8th month tend to have SEVERE physical and mental deformities (if they survive at all). Hell, even children born between the 8th and 9th month have disabilities more often than not. Her being born during the fifth month, surviving AND growing up with no physical disability at all is absolutely impossible.

2) I initially had a problem with Chihiro's mother - NO parent that abusive would be allowed to keep their child. But then you mentioned the legal battles, and everything fit into place. Generally, abusive mothers are a lot more tolerated by authorities than abusive fathers are, which is why Chihiro's mom could be able to get away with being allowed to raise a child despite being diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Still, you could, perhaps, include a reference about all of this?

3) So let me get this straight - whenever Chihiro gets a seizure, Porcelina takes over? I'm sure you already know this, but epilepsy doesn't work that way. While not all seizures are powerful enough to send the victim into unconsciousness (some involve "a fleeting numbness of a part of the body, a brief or long term loss of memory, visual changes, sensing/discharging of an unpleasant odor, a strange epigastric sensation, or a sensation of fear and total state of confusion", according to Wikipedia), the ones that are often come with seizures and severe muscle spasms. Needless to say, even if Porcelina did take over during that time, she wouldn't be able to do much. My advice would be to have a separate trigger specifically for when Porcelina shows up, that's separate from the triggers that cause seizures.

4) I'd advise you to give more information about what exactly triggers her seizures, and (following what I said above), also what causes Porcelina to show up.

So far, I think that's it. There was something else bothering me about the profile, but I can't remember what when I was typing this. In any case, those should be enough pointers for now.

I was born premature with the same size that I described. I was due in December but came out in late October. I had no problems. Also she was supposed to be due in late January. Well...if you count ADHD a big problem but that's a real common one. But I can understand what you are saying.

Porcelina shows up mostly during grand mal seizures. She has visions during the major seizures
and vivid dreams about her at times. It's not a dissociative identity disorder. The whole point is Porcelina, her unconscious self, is slowly coming further into light and merging into her conscious self as she goes along. All that repressed negative emotion is leaking out and who she idealizes herself as is becoming merges with that hence her increasing appearance as her. She's becoming her shadow, being consumed by who she wants to be, what she wishes to have and is being comforted and consumed by her. The UNconscious is becoming conscious. She's kinda like what Cortana is to Master Chief, though, more so, a growing whisper in the ear from the mind.

Chihiro still has regular seizures from her condition, of course, but the big ones are usually caused by trauma and times of provoked emotional distress.

"Keep your head down...
...there's two of us in here, remember?"

Aaah, the miracle of child birth. A place where many miracles can exist within one.
I myself was a weird child in that area of life. My mummah was in the middle of getting her tubes tied when they found out she was pregnant with me.
I mean just pregnant. As in they nearly burned my ass!
Point being, never underestimate anybody. From the oldest man to the youngest fetus. Never underestimate anybody.

Take this to the OOC forums. Thank you.


This is not only OOC,this is als ocompletly pointless

NorX, don't you have something a bit more important to do here than to reprimand Satoshi?

Ahh allright


Ill approve this character because the undergoing changes made it a character worth approving. ive waited enough time to do my job


have fun porcelina cinderella barbara the 3th of yamaku.


heh...joking aside.